Little Miss Confetti Princess 2010

Too Much Pain. Too Much Hurt.

As I am writing this entry, I can’t help it but my tears are rolling down my face. There are events in my life that I couldn’t take the hurt and the pain anymore.

I saw the pictures of my husband’s kid from the other woman at friendster.com. I can’t help but remember all the painful memory I had. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to do. The pain really hurts and my heart is bleeding.

Why am I in such pain? Why do I love somebody who doesn’t love me back? You may say…”no, he loves you.” But please, spare these words. He already told me that he doesn’t love me anymore. He tried but he can’t. He said that’s the reason why he couldn’t feel if I am already hurt. He thought I deserve this.

One thing I can only say, it’s better to be physically slapped on the face than be slapped by words that the person you expect to love you doesn’t really love you at all.

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5 Comments so far

  1. Lalaine on February 16th, 2008

    So sorry Rubs…I can’t imagine your pain…I’m praying for you.

  2. reggysy on February 17th, 2008

    I’m so sorry that this has happened to you. Obviously, you’ll be better off without him because you don’t deserve to be treated like that. I pray that your pain will go away one day soon.

    Thanks for letting me advertise on your blog.

  3. mon on February 17th, 2008

    Live you life. Find piece through constant prayer. God will guide you.My prayers will be with you. God Bless you.

  4. Pinay WAHM on February 17th, 2008

    Still here praying that you overcome this hurdle.

    Stay strong!

    Juliana

  5. Gamay on February 17th, 2008

    Mommy, I am totally shocked when I read this. I really dont know you personally, but I know how you feel. I wish to know more about you as my friend on the net. I will include you in my prayers. Remember GOd is always there watching us. He knows how we feel, he never forsake us, HE’s always there to guide our path and heals the pains inside.

    take care, i hope you will find happiness and peace in your heart.

    my thoughts are with you.

    Gamay

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