Be Leaving Soon

It is not fix but I might be leaving for Cagayan de Oro City soon. Maybe on June 3, 2008. Me and my kids are just waiting for our fare back home. I think this would be very nice for me as I will be home for after almost 3 years of being away. Well, I am not going home rich with many gifts but the exact opposite. I going home with minimal amount of money just enough to get by life as each day passes by.

Actually, I am not planning to leave Bacolod. I like it here and also the school my kids are going to and of course, my new friends. But, our situation here is not getting any better. My husband is still driven to his drunkenness amidst our financial difficulties. If he doesn’t drink, he will just make you feel guilty about not loving him. And when he is drunk, he will make you feel sorry that you ever lived. So, might as well go home and take some rest. I am emotionally beaten already and badly hurt inside. I think I need to spare my self worth for awhile. Well, I am not planning to have another separation. It’s just that I need to go home and rest emotionally. Going home will also lighten our financial load. My parents will be there to assist as I work my way to getting better physically (and emotionally) and also paying all our debts through blogging. And maybe, being physically apart again can make better things for both of us…me and my hubby. Maybe he would realize our worth compared to his drunken buddies and male ego. But if he wouldn’t, well I will continue living life for my kids. I do love him, no doubt but I need to live for my kids. They need me and I promise to be with them always. That is why I am pursuing myself worth.

If I am offline for a few weeks, that would really mean that I have no internet connection yet but of course would try to check on you guys with few his and hellos. So don’t worry if I have no new posts. It would only mean “NO INTERNET CONNECTION” not suicide. LOL!!!

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  1. ennah d student says:

    It’s sad to hear that your hubby is emotionally and physically hurting you. And i think it’s a good thing to separate ways and have a good rest. Well, i wish you good health and happiness in life. Take care, mommy. 😀

  2. ennah d student says:

    Take good care of your health.

  3. Mommy Ruby says:

    oh no..he doesn’t physically hurt me. im sick physically. anyway, he emotionally hurt me always.

  4. Ennah says:

    Oh i’m sorry. Well, it’s nice to hear that he doesn’t hurt you physically. But he’s still hurting you. I hope you get to settle things with your hubby. Just pray and be strong. You’ll get through it.

  5. Pinay WAHM says:

    Hi Mommy Ruby….

    With all that you’ve been through [what we know of anyway], I think you really deserve the break. I’m glad your parents are around to be your support system.

    Just keep doing what you’re doing and you’ll be fine. Stay strong. Remember, what don’t kill you, will make you strong!

    As always, we’re here.

    Mommy J

  6. aeirin says:

    haaay.. Mommy, take care of yourself and your kids… I hope everything will be okay.. Just be strong… All the mommies here (I’m not yet a mommy huhu), are always here for you.. We are here for you..

  7. -K- says:

    Sometimes love just ain’t enough. Going away for a while may be one of the hardest decisions you had to make but it could also be for the best. Let me say welcome back to CdO in advance! Maybe we can meet up 😉

  8. PinoyRak says:

    Awww. Hope things will get better. Stay strong okay.

  9. Paula says:

    We will surely miss you! I hope your husband will come to his senses – fast! Anyway, may God bless you and your children. Take care!

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