I am really stupid. I just caused myself to get hurt several times this week because of my hubby. We always had a fight while chatting. I got so irritated with him because he always makes me wait for nothing. Our first chat ended with a fight because he accused me of leaving him because I had plans to get involved with another man. Our supposed second chat, I waited until dawn for him but to no avail. He was busy drinking with his buddies again. Yesterday afternoon, he was online but didn’t mind chatting with me. I buzzed him for a chit chat but he said he was busy watching NBA. And later this evening, when I logged-in, I saw a message that he wants to talk to the children. Then I let him talked to my Big Girl because Baby Boy was asleep already. After they talked, he told me to wait for awhile because he was hungry and that he will cook noodles that took him almost an hour. But stupidly, I waited. After I waited, I buzzed him. He said he was eating. So, I waited. After awhile, I buzzed him. He said wait a little while because he will get something to drink. So, again I waited. Buzzed him again, he said he was doing something from his work and of course, he was busy. Now, tell me if I don’t have the right to get irritated??
So, I told him that I hated him for making me feel stupid and wait for him for nothing. Then he accused me of initiating another fight. He told me I was emotional and I don’t make sense at all. Gesh!! It made me frustrate the more.
I had it. I loved a person who doesn’t even give a little thought about how I feel for him. Of course it’s really frustrating to wait for someone to talk to you and ends up not talking to you because of NBA, beer or he being hungry. And the sad part is, he makes you wait and hope for a chat.
How I wish I would not miss him! How I wish I would not feel for him! How I wish.
I don’t want to think about this but lately, I have discoveries that led me to believe that he was really trying to get rid of us. Even our neighbor texted that he always have happy moments drinking beers and singing with friends. I guess he has other plans. Stupid Me!!