So Hard…

A text from my hubby just came in lately. He informed me that he will not be able to come home on my birthday. The news really saddens me and made me cry. I have wanted to see him for so long. Even though we have a very rocky marriage, my love for him is stronger as ever. Well, he said that maybe around the 29th he would be allowed by their management to take a leave since he holds a lot of responsibilities at the plant but that doesn’t guarantee that he will be here.
Anyway, as my birthday approaches, instead of being happy I have been feeling so down. All heartaches have gone my way especially my husband’s not coming home and CC over dues, sometimes I thought if I could still carry it anymore. I felt that I am already in the verge of giving up all the things I have hoped for.Sometimes the easiest and simple ambitions are the ones that are really hard to achieve. I am not after any materialistic items. I am contented with the tangible things that I have. The only thing that I really desired is a happy marriage and a happy family. That’s my wish and that’s what I longed for. No more. No less. Why is it really hard to achieve??


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Comments

  1. Kat says:

    *hug*

  2. Xee says:

    few days apart lang ang birthday natin (I’m on 28th), and am also going through a tough time. kaya natin ‘to, sis!

  3. Z'riz says:

    Hi mami…hope you’ll still enjoy your birthday…your kids and your parents are with you…

    IM you lang mami okay?

  4. Hailey's Beats and Bits says:

    hi ruby! hang on there. i know how difficult it is to be in your shoes but just think how your kids inspire you to be strongest person you can be.
    di ba our kids give us reason to be stronger and optimistic than we really are?

  5. vhiel says:

    hey mommy… i hope you get to see your hubby on your bday… sometimes its really hard to get all the things that we want but hang on, I’m sure everything should be alright… i remember when i just got married my husband’s company was going to move him to another state for work, and he didnt want to do it because he will be gone all the time and we don’t want that. it’s really hard to be away from your other half…

    hey can you not move to where he is right now? just a question..

  6. zexxx says:

    kaya mo yan ate!!

    advance happy birthday!!
    we, your internet friends will always be here!

  7. Mommy Ruby says:

    alam niyo guys! i really do appreciate all the comments. the effort itself makes me feel happy inside.

    i am praying that someday. God will allow a complete family for me. maybe not perfect but happy!


    @ kat, thanks for the hug!

    @ mommy xee, happy birthday in advance. pareho pala tayo july.

    @ mommy z’riz, yeah…that’s something i am thankful. surely they will make me smile on that day.

    @ mommy hailey, your so true mommy…they kids really make us stronger than we think. minsan, mas optimistic sila and they can touch us inside.

    @ mommy vhiel, we did have a rocky marriage that is why we went back here at my parent’s place but still i missed him so dearly.

    @ zexx, i am happy din na napaka supportive ng mga friends ko online. ajah!!

  8. Mina says:

    This too shall pass…

  9. Robin says:

    Hi,
    I hope you get to feeling better. Your kids need you and love you very much. Wishing you many HAPPY Blessings! 🙂

  10. Mummy Sheng says:

    hey, don’t loose hope! remember you still have your children. your hubby may not be able to be with you on your special day, but that doesn’t mean that the world should stop revolving. you are the only hope your kids have and don’t let them down by seeing you so sad.

    cheer up! there are still a lot of things to be thankful for!

    take care always!

  11. Scotty's Princess says:

    Ohh, this is sad, Mommy Ruby. But keep the faith and love burning. Everything will work out just fine. Never cease praying…. Advance Happy Birthday! SMILE!!!!

    OUR JOURNEY TO FOREVER
    LAINY’S MUSINGS

  12. christian says:

    Smile… you’ll never know there might be a suprise waiting for you…

    Good times…

  13. che says:

    Cheer up mommy Ruby.. Be strong.. 😉

    Happy Birthday!

  14. faeryrowan says:

    Hugs you, too! I know how difficult this is for you. But you are strong, and you can get through this. The Lord has something beautiful and good in store for you for all these hardships He is letting you go through. Just keep the faith, Mommy. We’re here for you. =)

  15. Mariuca says:

    Ruby!!! When is ur birthday dear? 29th if this month?

    Hang in there okay? As long as you love him enough to trust and have faith in your marriage, you guys will be okay. Lots love and hugs for u Ruby and we’ll have a special online celebration for ur birthday okay? :):):)

  16. Bonz says:

    cheer up, mommy ruby! your family will through with it and it will make your bond stronger. have faith!
    a happy birthday (again) to you!

  17. Pearl says:

    Hi mommy ruby!

    Cheer up! more blessings are surely coming your way… have a very happy birthday!

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