Unorganized Thoughts

I am fully awake and it’s already 5:28am when I was starting to type this post. I am hungry and a little bit tired. I really want to sleep but I can’t. When I lay myself to bed, many thoughts are wandering inside my head. So many that I couldn’t seem to find a way how to prioritize them, which one should be processed first and which ones should be next. I will try to post my thoughts. Maybe I will be able to figure things out later.
I have been thinking about my birthday. I will be turning 29 and I am back at my parent’s house. It really makes me feel so down and I feel so useless here again. My mom and dad get the authority figure and sometimes I, being a mom to my kids, get side tracked. It really hurts me deep inside.

My hubby sent money last Monday. Yup, he sent me 800 pesos, roughly around $18. He told me that he has much accountability that he had to settle and that his salary is just not enough. He said that he will try to explain everything when he gets home on my birthday.
Oh well, I am kinda excited he is going home on my birthday. I missed him terribly and I hate him too! After all that he has done, I want to break him to pieces but because I love him, I want to hug him tight. Duh! Women! Hehehehe….

Anyway, another thing, they say don’t bite the hand that feeds you. But what if the hand that is supposed to be feeding you, stops doing so? Don’t you have the right to bite? 😉 I have this one get paid to blog company. They owe me around $40. I sent them an email to follow-up on this since it was already long overdue. But still, I got no reply. Why o why?? My posts are all nofollow free and if you will Google it, you can still see it. Gesh!! Scammers have already taken hold of get paid to blog industry. Remember the company, getpaidtopost.com? They have many tasks and I am sure that the advertisers already paid them, and walah! They are gone!! Charge to experience.

My mom is already awake. She is preparing her lemon juice. She sells it by foot in the market. I told her to stop doing it but she says she wants to contribute and don’t want to feel useless. Ahhh…parents and pride!

My children are still asleep. Thank God, the fever is gone. Only cough and colds left. But they are not yet going to school. I am afraid they might catch fever again. Maybe a good rest will really do them good.

Yesterday, one of the credit card company informed me that I am already passed due. He said I have to settle it within a week. Gesh!! Where will I find the money for that?? My blogging income hasn’t reached the amount needed to avail of a no fee transfer. I still have a long way to go. It’s really scary to be called upon. These are the times I wanna kick my hubby’s butt. Hehehe….

Anyway, gotta go now…need to click, drop and hop!! Take care and thanks for reading my senseless post.


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4 Comments

  1. Hi there, Pinay Mommy!!”Senseless Post” you say? I say, “release”. Thanks for sharing. We all have our ups and downs, but we Pinay Moms are resilient. God is good! Hop and away with blessings! I prayed for you. *hug*

  2. Now that I’m enjoying being the one holding the reigns dito sa bahay, I don’t know kung gano kahirap mag-adjust ulit if babalik pa ang dad ko dito and sa kanya na naman ang authority. So in some ways, I can relate.

    I’m going to include you in my prayers, Mommy Ruby. I am also going through a tough time, I am just waiting for the right moment to share it. Thanks for sharing us a piece of yourself. God bless you and your family.

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