As a stay at home mom, it is my sincerest commitment to breastfeed my baby. Unfortunately, for two days now, my baby was able to drink 3 bottles of milk formula. My mom thinks that the reason Baby Bella cries and wanted to be held always from dawn to morning is because she is not getting any milk from me. Because of this, I became paranoid and felt guilty that I might not be giving my baby the milk she needs.
Anyway, I told my mom that I would not let Baby Bella drink from the bottle again as this would stop my breastmilk production. She said that it wouldn’t if I just feed my baby one bottle a day. So I explained to her that if Baby Bella will grow with the bottle, she would prefer it rather than me because milk formulas nowadays are sweet. Once she will grow fond of the taste, she will always look for this and eventually stop breastfeeding from me.
So now, as of the time of writing this post, I haven’t slept. I have been up carrying and breastfeeding Baby Bella. A few hours ago, we gave the third bottle of milk formula because my mom insisted that she wouldn’t sleep because she is hungry but my mom was wrong. Baby Bella drank a few sips from the bottle not enough to reach one ounce. She was not hungry! She was just being fussy!
I am a new generation mom. Supposed to be, I am the one who will pursue milk formula rather than breastfeeding but I don’t. I want to pursue and be successful in breastfeeding. I have breastfed my two older children and I am willing to fight for my third even if it entails sleepless and stressful nights. Even if it will cost me an acne breakout, I wouldn’t mind since I can always get acne treatments later. What matters most right now is that I will breastfeed my baby successfully even for one year. I will be happy with that!