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LIFE is just TOO MUCH for Me!!


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In these recent days, my hubby didn’t text me. Well, he did about a few days back when he asked for money. So I decided to text him something provoking because he doesn’t usually reply to a plain “I love you” text message.And guess what?! He replied saying that he loves me and he has an interview going to Saudi!

Well of course, I replied that I don’t want to be rich. All I ever wanted is just for us to be together and live life with our children and what we have. I don’t want him to go to Saudi, his brother is there. The close friend of my hubby’s other woman (he has a daughter with her and the girl is married too!). If he goes there, they can now communicate freely and I don’t want that to happen! Even my hubby is here, he couldn’t be trusted. How much more if he is thousands upon thousands of miles apart?

It’s just so freaking unfair! My aunt called the other day and said there are many jobs in Los Angeles. And you know what? I turned down my aunt’s proposal to help me get work as a teacher there because I valued our marriage but now, he applied for a job to Saudi without me knowing it?! This is soooooooo… making me mad! I admit, I cried and still crying right now. I am so martyr! I am so “boba” (stupid). I love a person who couldn’t even love me enough to sacrifice a complete family. No wonder he wouldn’t want us to go back there. He has other plans.

I have to stop this…I am crying and I couldn’t keep my tears from flowing. I am just so broken hearted right now. I just felt so utterly stupid about myself. I have too much storm in my life already. I couldn’t bear it anymore. I just couldn’t…

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Paraiso Philippines September 28, 2008 - 2:34 am

When you walk through a storm
Hold your head up high
And don’t be afraid of the dark
At the end of a storm is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark

Walk on through the wind
Walk on through the rain
Tho’ your dreams
Be tossed and blown

Walk on..
Walk on..
With hope in your heart
And you’ll never walk alone
You’ll never walk alone

pchi September 28, 2008 - 3:00 am

hi mommy ruby!

i am sorry to know that you’re hurt about your hubby’s future plans… that don’t include you

I could relate to some extent because my boyfriend is also thinking of going abroad, and I am almost agreeing with it, because I trust him

anyway, I am not sure if I got it right, did you mean to say, your hubby has another woman?

hmmm, bad cheetah!

calm down po, just trust in the Lord, He knows his plans for you

Mommy Ruby September 28, 2008 - 3:04 am

@ paraiso philippines aka papa jude, thanks for this wonderful song and the time you have given me sa chat. i really do appreciate it. muchas gracias!!

Mommy Ruby September 28, 2008 - 3:07 am

hello sis pchi! thanks sa comment and visit.

yes he has another woman before that’s why we got separated. about two years ago he decided to get back with me (no job sya noon) and now i told him not to go abroad. ok ako sa konting income as long as we are together. i will try to earn money din for the family dito sa pinas. unfortunately, he has plans pa rin pala. he applied without telling me. huhuhuhu

Laurie September 28, 2008 - 3:27 am

this guy is an ass. Take his money and run.

PINAY MOMMY September 28, 2008 - 3:43 am

so sad laurie but i hate myself for loving this man. 🙁

Scotty's Princess September 28, 2008 - 4:34 am

I believe that “Love is blind that lovers can’t see, but God gave us an extra eye to see it’s beauty”.

But in your situation, it’s a different thing. If I ask you, “can you still see the beauty of life in his arms?, what would your answer be? If it’s in the affirmative, then go and fight for that love. But if it’s not, you have a lot of thinking to do.

I remember my Prince telling me ONCE A CHEAT, ALWAYS BE A CHEAT. I don’t know if it holds true with your hubby.

Cheer up, Mommy Ruby! Despite setcbacks, life is still beautiful and there are still many reasons to smile!

All the best,

praning5254 September 28, 2008 - 4:42 am

mommy, I am sorry to hear about that and certainly I can relate to your situation…

I just get tired watching over my hubby’s “activities” and decided to not mind him at all. I just allow him to do whatever he wants and even tell him to leave us and be with the “other woman”, but he didn’t, but just keep on commincating with her.

I guess, if you keep getting hold of him, the more he wants to get free. You try to let go of him and that’s when he’ll realize how important you and your babies to him…

Don’t let him ruin your perspectives in life. Just focus your attention to your children and try not to think of him. you have so many friends around that love you very much.

timi September 28, 2008 - 5:07 am

mommy r! i feel for you. sana maging ok ang things between you two.

I think both of you should talk talaga ng maayos, yung harap harapan talaga. Mas madaling malaman ang intentions ng asawa mo if you talk to him face to face, lalo na that you know him very well. If that can’t happen right now, then have a long telephone conversation, kahit long distance at least makapagusap kayo. Don’t think about the phone charges, or anything else, just make sure na nagkakaintindihan kayo at make sure you will come up with a resolution kung baga.

Men cannot be controlled when it comes to their decision-making. But you can tell him your fears and if he cares enough, then he can at least reconsider or at least try to ease your mind.

Mitch September 28, 2008 - 5:39 am

*hugs* to you Mommy R!

Pearl September 28, 2008 - 5:59 am

it’s so sad Mommy Ruby. You two should really talk. Talking on the phone is not an option, so, I think, it’s either you visit him or ask him to come to Manila. A heart-to-heart talk i think between you is really a must now. God bless and be strong always.

The HardHead September 28, 2008 - 6:18 am

I have been reading your blog for awhile. I am a PIG as much as most guys. But don’t give up on him just yet! Guys are stupid – we are thinking about money not the other woman all the time. Keep telling him you love him. Let him go abroad and see – just plan for the worst and hope for the better! Karma will find its proper place in time.

I know – Im learning how to be a good daddy after so many years of being a butterfly.


Ennah, the comsci student September 28, 2008 - 7:48 am

I hope you two will get ok soon even though things are shaky right now. I’ll include you in my prayers. Just trust and believe in Him.

SHIELA September 28, 2008 - 11:26 am

i don’t know what to say rubs…but i think you will be better without him. sorry to say that. hugs to you.

Jade September 28, 2008 - 8:15 pm

My dear Mommy Ruby,

I don’t know what to say – I am thinking, If I were you I would ignore him for a long time and let him realize how important you are to him…but that’s just me.

Mag usap siguro kayo kung ano ba talaga gusto niya mangyari sa relationship nyo.I am still hoping na it would work out for the best at the end.

Z'riz September 28, 2008 - 9:29 pm

Hi Mommy R! I’m sorry about this recent…..issue you are having with your hubby… I know the last time we had a chat we were talking about our love lives…

Anyway, I think it’s past time for second, third, fourth, and fifth chances. I find that it is quite obvious that he doesn’t want to be with you…and heck, he doesn’t deserve you or your family at all! You deserve BETTER Mommy.

I know it’s hard but I’m sorry to be blunt this time. I know you’ll be better of without him.

Hugs… Message me if you want to talk okay?

twinks September 29, 2008 - 12:51 am

Hi Mum Ruby,
I hope all is well.
I know you’re not emotionally fine right now. I’m sorry.
Just be strong. There comes a point in our life that we have to learn to love ourself more than others. It’s hard for you coz you love him very much, but I guess you have to stop and think if it’s worthit. If you think it is then fight for it, if you think it’s not then you have to face life’s sorrow. Don’t worry Mum Ruby, despite everything, life is good and God is there. He knows what’s best for you and your kids. He knows you can do it.
Take care :]
ps. pls vote for me pala.. the poll is in my blog :] mwahugs! for you

Cielo September 29, 2008 - 6:06 am

hi sis, napakapatient mo talaga sis…bilib ako sa iyo…

but always remember that it takes two to tango…it is hard to make a relationship work if it is a one way stream…

perhaps you should try to focus on yourself now, for the sake of the kids….and move on..

Naomi September 29, 2008 - 6:12 am

hello mum rubz… this is so sad to hear! i have read about what you have gone through with your hubby long ago and until now you still face the same dilemma…tsk…tsk…tsk…

i guess this is the best time to think about yourself and consider your self-worth. I know it hurts a lot but be strong for the sake of your children. You still have them, so who needs a husband anyway…

Mommy Ruby September 29, 2008 - 9:17 am

I love you all guys! Thank you so much for all the advices. I really do appreciate it.

Honestly, it’s really hard to decide if it involves the person you have loved from the moment your heart started to feel for others. Just like what the other peeps have said, I think I should start loving myself but it’s really hard.

But I will try to patch up things again and talk, maybe life would be kind to me next time but if not. I am sure I will have a very challenging future.

Again mommies and friends, thank you very much for all the love. God bless you all and more power. Muah!!


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