Oh well, I did try my best to become a good wife and mother. I don’t know how to cook but I tried. Actually, I resigned from my high-paying job because I wanted to learn how to become a better mom and wife. But it seems he doesn’t appreciate my hard work, he always says that being an ideal wife and mom is easy but why can’t I do it? I guess he expects too much from me, it’s only been 3 months since I resigned, he couldn’t expect me to cook specialized home-cooked viand or even organized household chores (when I practically grew up excelling in other things but not household work because I was a sickly child, my mom wouldn’t want me to work). But I tried and still trying.
Hmmm….it really hurt when you’re not loved. My parents love me and my children do, but my hubby?? Nahh…I am just a helpmate. After all, our marriage was a product of careless moves. But, I really do love him but sometimes love really hurts…because love is not expecting to be loved back.
But the question is?? How long could I take this?? Well, I guess God is the only one who can make me go through this. I can’t…I mean I am about to give-up again with our marriage but I am still holding on because of my love for him and the kids love for him.
Ahhh….heart issues are too much to bear. That is why I have a blog to express it. HEHEHE…
Guys, I told you before…don’t expect much of a happy posts from me. I am a combination of all. This is just one of my emotional heartaches. Please bear with the BEAR. muah!